today is weird

I dont like social networking

its scary and unnatural and makes me feel gross and fat and ugly

I want to be above it but im not

It teaches people to not be thankful for what they have until they look back at a post a year later and realize that everything was okay

today is weird because exactly a year ago my grandfather passed away

and everything was different

why do adults like me so much

I think I just represent themselves at their age and they want to guide me (themselves) through adolescents 

I let this year slip by and I made excuses for everything and shrugged everything off

whatever 

I guess i just want to know that everything is going to be okay